MY ALTER EGO VS THE WORLD

If I can nominate, twin flame is obviously the biggest bullshit of the century. It has been seven good years that i hadn't been in a relationship. Throughout those 7 years as you can see from my blog post, my luck in romance is nearly zero. I fall in love with the wrong person, I got manipulated, I always put myself before everyone that cannot appreciate my love and compassion. Most of the times, I feel being the caretaker, putting on the pants in the relationship is always my calling. I can never put my guard down in being the emotional provider in the relationship, I'm the one who always take care and make sure everything is right and I do not need to receive the same love I give to these people. Guess I've always been treated that way even from the fam hence I normalize this dynamics from my romance life too. Not loveable, hard too love, too hard to handle, I always associate my self as the problem to compensate the love I don't receive, to make me feel better about ...

Been a long time since my last post, my friend. Thank you for always sticking around It took me a while to find this site, haven't been able to wrap around the name even. I dont know what that means though,  whether I'm the last post is still the most relevant thing for me right now or I'm suppressing my feeling even deeper, even to my safest place, here. Guess it's safe to say that both options serves some rights to it. Surprisingly enough (even for me), i still can't get over how I still thing its him that suites me the most. I had a quick phone call with him last June. I felt like am over the moon just to hear his voice, catching up on stories Hearing his struggles and all the good things he has earned throughout his master degree. It still feels surreal for me to know that I'm (in a way) is one of the factor that he can survive every single shitty magister prep with me cheering him. Still wish him the very best in life, every single day, every single time i ...