senyoRRRRRR
its been a month since the call. am i doing ok? no. i guess a big no. i keep listening to sad playlist i specially made for u, rereading our conversations, just to be reminded of how much i love talking to you, what i believe have shown ur most vulnerable part of urs yet seen as the shiniest diamond in my eyes. i cannot put my head around how smart u are how funny u are how compassionate u are as a person as a friend and what i hoped as a lover when i first met you, not even a second that i would think u'll leave such a big impact in my life like what im feeling right now. never think that ill make a blogpost about how frustrated i am to love you this deeply even before....and even before im able to meet you in person, to hold you, hug you, even before all that. so i guess what im feeling is, am i being too deeply invested in a very short time? while youre still busy having a panic attack after seeing ur ex on ur timeline? am i that desperate of a person to be in love with someone...